Hello Lili,
My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time in your life.
Life deals all of us some challenges that we will never understand.
I know that being with family and friends help more then anything else during these times. Praying and journaling is huge to get you through one day to the next.
Again, you are not alone, even though it may seem like it. I will take you with me in my thoughts and prayers to help you lift this burden you are carrying to give you more strength and courage. God Bless...and Take care....Flo XoX