Dear Dragon- please remember, dear young lady, the expectations you need to live up to are ONLY YOUR OWN! We here at OCF, who are mostly very much older than you, are giving you a hugh hug for dealing with the terrific challanges presented to you at a very young age. If you were a child of mine, I would recommend that you find a good therapist or guideance counselor to help you put some of these experiences into a place where they don't rear their ugly heads in later life. You should be really proud of yourself for what you have handled. And you need to remember that you have sacrificed alot of yourself also, at an age where many kids could not handle the pressure. Be proud AND also recognise that you deserve to take care of Dargon too. GrandMa Amy in the Ozarks