Hi christine.

Yes you are right. I have read many of the posts of members here and am in awe of their bravery.

Ive done 3 things as suggested by members on here.

Firstly, my GP has put me on anxiety medication. 100mg ammitriptyline per night. Unfortunately its not instant and can take a while to work. Hopefully this will make this journey a little easier. The tablets certainly give you dry mouth in a morning.

Second. My GP is going to refer me to have counseling. She agrees i need it whatever they find on wednesday either for cancer diagnosis or for health anxiety if not.

Third. Ive told my wife. I am so glad its out in the open now. She is coming with me next wednesday. She said we will face this together and if its bad news we will fight it together. She is fantastic and my soul mate. I love this woman and want to grow old with her. I know that once i find out what im facing i will be much stronger for her and the children

I see a max/facial consultant tomorrow for my lump on my hard palate but im not sure what they will be able to do. They will probably just say to mention the lump when i see the ENT doc on wednesday when he checks my nasal area.

Today ive had such pains behind my right eye. Im hoping this is not related to my problems. Surely i would have more pain and symptoms in my nasal and sinus's before it reached my eye.