ive read your story and am sorry to see you here.the mental anguish can be devestating. the mind is a powerful thing.
in reading your story you have forgotten one thing......your wife.you need to let her into your world of concern.she can be the greatest supporter which you need. i have had oral cancer and the mental side can consume you. without my wife by my side,i never would have made it.have faith and i hope the prognosis turn out for the better.