Yorky, Im very sorry to see you are still over-stressed and overwhelmed. This is NOT helpful at all. Have you considered seeking out a therapist or someone professional to talk to about your mortality fears? I (and other members) suggested this to you almost 2 months ago. Many patients who have been diagnosed with a serious medical condition need a little help to adjust to the situation. I understand how stressful waiting can be. There are many things available to help, anxiety medications work wonders. Some of the meds take weeks for the patient to see results. Other anxiety meds are for patients who dont need it every day and the patient gets immediate relief.

I strongly recommend you to seek out a professional to help you deal with your situation. Please understand while your situation is horrible, sadly many here have it much worse. Our site has some very sick patients, some have been given a terminal diagnosis, some are unable to take even a sip of water for the rest of their lives, some cant speak; not ever, some are in hospice, others "only" are having a life altering surgery. Yet, somehow these patients will do their very best to make the most of every single day they are happy knowing they are fortunate enough to still be alive. These "brave" people even help others who are in need of info and support without considering their own medical problems.

Please take it day by day and do your very best to focus on what is within your control. I know for a fact if you can concentrate on something positive you will be able to better deal with your situation. Keeping busy can do wonders in helping to pass the time until you get diagnosed (hopefully with nothing serious). I hope you are never diagnosed with any type of head and neck cancer. Best wishes with your upcoming appointments.