I hear you, Kerri. It really does suck. You are young and this shouldn't be happening to you. I wish there was an easy answer to the depression. Have you got a local support group?

We have a different system in New Zealand but we still have battles with bureaucracy which are hard to deal with when cancer has already stretched the coping skills to almost breaking point.

I hope writing here has released some of the pressure. In my darkest hours I've come on this site and felt some relief just by describing how I feel.

Wishing you well.



1996, ovarian cancer surgery + cisplatin and taxol.
September, 2007, SCC of left lateral tongue. Excision.
October, 2009 recurrence in scar tissue, T1NOMO. Free flap surgery from left wrist - neck dissection. 63 year old New Zealander. No chemo, no RT.
February, 2014. New primary in left buccal mucosa. Marginal mandibulectomy, neck dissection, right arm free forearm flap. T1N0M0 but third occurrence and some areas of concern: RT started 8 April and finished 19 May.