Thank you all so much I am so glad to have found this. It is just so hard not knowing, you are right about that. Then the holidays and I can't help thinking what will happen. I find myself bargaining with God and begging for him to let this be okay and just nothing. With five kids and the youngest 3 and 5 it is so hard for us, we are going all the time and I cannot even imagine doing it alone. We don't have any family around, and I am so scared. Thanks again. Tina, how long did yours take to get as big as it was?