Cheryl

Remember that even Paranoids have real enemies and Cancer is definitely not our friend. So it's actually normal in our case to have so called paranoid feelings. Actually I was a guest lecturer at a University Psychology course on how in some instances, "paranoia" is not the right term since it comes from the Greek words para (beyond) and noos (mind) while feelings based on intuitive knowledge are para (beyond) and gnosis (knowledge), so I had a neologism Paragnosis feelings.
So relax, have a glass of wine or MJ cookies. We all got though this and you will do. I was scared and had scary thoughts but I just made them background chatter. Plus I was careful crossing the street
Charm