I've heard this saying "I can't cope" so many times it's not funny. It just doesn't cut it as an excuse. When are people going to realise that every day they have with a person who is ill is a blessing and to make the most of it. Selfish people seem to always turn it around to be about them, like many of our so called supporters. If I hear this "I can't cope" again I will be telling them that it's not about them and to pull their head out of their butt and see and feel for someone else for a change. I for one "could not cope" if someone I loved suffered and passed away and I was not there for them in everyway I could be.

We constantly get let down by people who don't bother to see Steve. They even come to our town and are in no rush to get home and never seem to cover the fact from me that they have been close to our house but still have only set foot in our house once in 16 months. They just can't seem to find the way to our house for some reason. All because they can't cope. It's madness. But many, many times I've been there for them in the last 16 months at times they've needed me. For me, I'm a carer. I care about people and don't believe anyone should go through anything hard by themselves. So I do what I can to help make it easier for them. I was getting bitter at our treatment (and maybe sometimes I still am) but I'm determined not to let people like this change my caring nature. As for me, well I've spent every second of every day with Steve since he was diagnosed. For that I am forever grateful. It is their loss because they are missing out on an opportunity to learn and be inspired by this wonderful man.


Wife to Steve 43. DX 5 May 09. T4N2MO SCC tongue, floor of mouth, lymph nodes & jaw bone
No surgery
Teeth removed 06/07/2009
radiation 13/07/2009 x 7wks
chemo 15/07/2009 x 3 Cisplatin
last TX 28/08/2009
25/11/2009 PET-lymph node activity.
08/01/2010 CT Scan-ALL CLEAR
03/03/2010-Peg removed
01/2013 left side of Jaw removed and replaced with pectoral flap.
23/12/2020 scan show lesion in tongue
01/2021 SCC stage 3 base of tongue diagnosed
01/03/2021 chemotherapy started.