Seth,

I had a similar experience. Mine hit about 2 months out of treatment and I was prescribed an anti-depressant by my doctor. That helped a lot. He told me that this is a fairly common condition for post treatment cancer patients as we all realize we are fighting for our lives (anybody who has gone through this and says they were not acutely aware of their mortality is a liar). He equated the post treatment condition to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Here we are, just like a soldier on a battlefield, fighting for our lives. In treatment we live in the moment and the fight is what keeps us going every day. It is post treatment where we get that feeling that our inner foundation has completely disappeared. We have nothing to cling to as far as the in the moment fight is concerned as that is now over, yet we have a completely new reality to deal with and we have not completely sorted that out yet. We find ourselves confronted by a new reality with little to no foundation below us to support us. It's real wobbly and terribly uncomfortable

I have told family members that my biggest adjustment was trying to figure out where my priority�s and life goals are now. I have all the same priorities and goals but they have been shuffled like a deck of cards. In the past all these cards where face up and laid out in my mind in an orderly fashion. Now they are all shuffled and face down. I am finding that some of my lowest priorities in the past are at the top of the deck now. I have a great deal of that deck to still flip though one card at a time to figure out what the new reality I am facing will look like. I�m a bit ahead of you so most of the first cards in my new deck are now face up and I have regained some of the old feeling of having a foundation I held before diagnosis and I am settling down.

Give it some time and don�t be afraid to discuss this with your medical team. Keep the faith as your new life will start sorting itself out and you will find a new foundation you can set your feet firmly on as you embark on the new future that is the rest of your life.

Good Luck!