Sharlee,
Take strength from here, keep reading when you feel there's nowhere else to turn, keep taking your tablets, get friends/relatives to take you to appointments, and ask for---and accept--all help you can get to get outta there!
Or, is there anyone you trust who could tell Joe HE must go??
Take care, look after YOU--kids are more resilient than you think--and remeber we're all here for you
Brenda