Tammy, where ru in Arizona? I'm in Mesa just starting all this crap (or at least since May) and hating it all for sure. My next super dose of chemo is Dec. 23rd so Christmas for sure is called off. My family thinks I should just "celebrate" because after all my sister is doing all the cooking and stuff. Well, why would I want to be sitting in a room with a bunch of jolly people while I'm making sure I'm close to a bathroom 'cause I'm sick as a dog. I really haven't been into Christmas since my husband died but now I have no reason to celebrate anything.