Watt-

You are not a big baby. You are tough and strong. This is a most brutal treatment in a very sensitive area- it compromises our speech, our eating. You'd have to have a heart of stone not to feel sad or upset. See what you options are with taking disability. It isn't an easy process but that's what disability is for-- to help people who are sick when they aren't feeling good enough to work.

Don't feel guilty. Try and see if someone can help you file for disability. I think the American Cancer society could also help you. there are many organizations out there.

Wishing you complete healing from this diseaes.

KATE