Watt...I wish my husband was not out of town this week or I'd have him write you a post. I think you put into words how he felt...my husband did eventually cry...sometimes he would go to sleep hoping he wouldn't wake up...ever. He started treatment feeling strong and healthy...and, ended treatment feeling anything but strong and healthy.

Due to the physical demands of his job, he was out of work from June 07 through February of 08. It was hard on him, on me and on the kids. But, in reflection...those nine months were a tiny part of his 50 years. And, a blip on our 20 year marriage.

I know it's hard to see the light at the tunnel...and the tunnel probably feels impossibly long right now.

Are you self employed or working for someone? Do you have the option to stop working and to give in to the rest your body is asking for?