Thanks, everyone. Your kind words are such a great comfort.

Liz, you are so right about our "fragile peace." It is so ironic, the ent doctor has always been quick to suspect that any new development was the cancer returning. With this growth, he was just sure it wasn't cancerous. Maybe that should have been a warning??!!

We see the oncologist in four hours and forty-five minutes (but who's counting?!). I'm so stressed I don't even know how to cope. I spent a sleepless night and and now I only want to stomp my feet and sob and howl. And I need to stay as positive as I can to help Jim.

Again, thanks for listening. As you know only too well, life is just too hard to bear sometimes.

Barb