Dear Barb, any of us who have lived past the ripe old age of 30 have "woulda-coulda-shouda"s". I hope you can file yours under " Oh, well, I could have done that different" or Better yet - you can Forget them. Every day going forward that you and Bill spend together is a gift. Every good morning and good night kiss is a gift. How you handle the challanges in between will be the greatest test of your strenght. Wishing you best luck. Amy in the Oz.