Sone I understand how beat down you are but no one is playing with your mind here. It is soo important that you really really try to finish ..Bob was originally given the choice of watch and wait or Rads ...to make the descision since it was a choice? We got several opinions and of course were mostly hoping that it would wiegh on watch and wait ..DID NOT HAPPEN what we learned is what was said ..one microscopic missed cancer cell spells reoccurrence NO IFS NO BUTS....
Yes Treatment Totally Sucked!! and
He is now facing a major free flap jaw surgery this week 5 years out due to damage from the Rads but IT AIN"T CANCER !! and is survivable no matter the outcome.

Bob was treated in the same time frame began radiation in July and Yes on thanksgiving as a goal !! Bobs first realization that it was getting better was Thanksgiving dinner!! There has to be something that will make you comfortable or just plain knock you out for a bit to make you comfortable for at least a few hours of relief!! better your family deals with you out of the loop and loopy now than facing a possible way worse scenario in the future USE WHATEVER RESOURCES YOU HAVE TO DO THIS ONLY ONCE!!