well this is the week and fri will be the day.I'am getting so nerves that I had to take this week off from work becaulse I just cant think straight anymore.I sat all nite sat nite in my office and cried becaulse I knew after fri I will not look the same and talk the same and the thought of somthing going wrong during the surgery or what they might find that the test didn't show. I dont know I might just be loosing it I cant eat cant sleep I have bitten all my finger nails off to the finger tips.I just will be so glad to get past all of this and be able to move on with my life and just pray that things will get better.One thing I can say is that I fill better talking to you all because you guys and gals have been through the same thing and I thank god for each and every one of you all.

Raymond