Hey Ray Man. Hang in there big guy. It is a big step you take but you are never alone with the big cancer biting your ass. You have friends and supporters as you can tell from this web site response. Get the anti anxiety medication and take a load of your mind. You have to maintain a positive attitude and a vision of recovery to aid your healing. We all went through the tears and the fears and who is that person in the mirror concerns, but remember when you look out of your eyes and see all your loved friends and family it all looks so much better and the same as it looked before. Stop biting your nails and eat some good wholesome food and enjoy this week. Make sure you get someone to take a photograph of you now and after surgery so you can laugh about this a year from now. Keep your pecker up and trust in your surgical team and nursing staff they are wonderfull people. Good Luck and stay in touch. Dan.