Raymond
What you are feeling is perfectly normal. We all felt that way. Ask your doc for an anti anxiety med. It will take the edge off. You will be swollen and sore after surgery. This, too shall pass. And yes, you will have to live with the changes this dreaded disease deals us. You can and will do it! You will have our support. Our prayers are with you.
Sue

Susan Holsberg
ssc r maxilla r partial maxillectomy 9/25 brachytherapy 12/7
28 imrt 12/27 erbitux 12/20 recurrance 5/07 total maxillectomy
keeping my fingers crossed