It's not that I feel disfigured, it's that I am disfigured. My primary tumor took up most of the right side of my face, so there was nothing much that the surgeons could do for me that way. I'm not used to how I look now, I've always been proud of how I looked and my appearance was a major part of who I was and where I got to professionally.

Now I get stared at when I go out or try to eat in a restaurant and I'm not used to it and it makes me feel very uncomfortable. I'm not comfortable with this change yet, it's going to take time for me to make the adjustment to how I look now. I do see my scars as battle scars but I can't say that I'm wearing them proudly. Maybe that makes me weak in some of your eyes but that's just where I am at the moment.