Friends:
Time does change things. During and soon after my treatment, I just assumed that I would probably die in the not too distant future. Then, for a couple of years, everytime I experienced anything unusual...an eye that kept tearing, a little white spot in my mouth, dizziness when I got out of bed too quickly...I got very concerned that it was a sign of a reoccurance and went to the doctor. Fortunately all of these were false alarms, and now, approaching 7 years from my original diagnosis and treatment, I don't really think much about reoccurance, and live my life just like other healthy folks. I plan for old age by saving for my future, thinking about retirement one day, deciding when I should start taking my social security,etc.
Of course I am aware that the other shoe could drop at any time. When I tried to buy some life insurance last year, I was turned down, but heck, at 61 I am older than most of the people that I read about in the obituaries each morning. (I love to read the obits!) I try not to work too hard and to play as much golf as I can...just like a lot of guys my age.
Life goes on, and I think that most of you will find, as I have, that as time passes, things will get better for you, and other thoughts will occupy your mind than just cancer and mortality. It is natural to worry,and we are a population at risk, but life is risky anyway.
Best of luck to you all.
Danny G.