It's good to have a place to whine, kick, cry and just generally bitch about all of this. My husband and I have also had the same fears....not enough money to get through this, having his taste return, possibly having to face it again. Believe me, I'm not expecting those fears to go away when treatment ends. Sometimes just putting it out there in writing and acknowledging it helps. I seriously don't know what I would have done if I hadn't found this forum. Some days it's all that keeps me sane to read the posts and know we aren't alone in what we're going thru.


CG to H with SCC BOT T4N2cM0 dx 12/19/08, teeth removed pre-tx; Erbitux & RT-done 3/12/09, PEG 2/9/09-7/14/09; ND 6/16. Pet 6/12-no mets except lymph node in neck removed on 6/16. Chyle leak,2nd surg to repair. Dilate esophagus 4/15/10. Clear PET 12/17/10