David,
Cancer is very scary. We all feel that way, it's so hard. I think talking about it is the best medicine. I remember one day talking to my fiancee..I finally said it. I said "I'm scared I'm going to die" just speaking those words made it so much better. We are all here for each other which is awesome. We all have multiple shoulders to lean on. So whine away!!! Scream, yell...whatever you need to do.