It's really tough to talk to anyone about the things that I'm afraid of. I get really awkward and hear a voice in the back of my mind saying "quit your whining" so I just keep quiet about it. But life is a scary place after cancer, knowing that it CAN happen to me. I'm afraid that I may never be able to enjoy food again and can't imagine life like that. I'm afraid that I may have to have massive dental work done and I can't afford it. I'm afraid of so many things but most of all a recurrence and I can not even imagine going through radiation again. I sometimes think that I just won't do it. I've never been a quitter but that might change if I have to face that again. At least I know I can come here and whine if I want to.


David R. 65 yr old male non-smoker, light drinker, stage 3 or 4, depending on which doc you ask, scc rt. tonsil, 2 nodes, 7 weeks radiation and chemo. No surgery. Teatment ended 3/20/08. PET scan 8/08 showed no cancer.
And now, as of oct, 2010, caregiver to wife, Linda, with breast cancer.
May, 2013, Linda diagnosed with stage 3 ovarian cancer. Enuf already.