Hi Angie,
I'm SO happy that you got some good news. That is just wonderful.
About your feelings, what you are feeling is normal, please do not beat yourself up over what you are going through. Cancer is hard on the patient and the family. Especially the spouse. I am almost happy to be the patient. I think the caregivers have it worse.
Also, when I was diagnosed and 2 years after I didn't let myself feel anything. I didn't really talk about it and I NEVER said cancer. I always said "when everything happened to my tongue" finally I had a panic attack and that was no fun. The point of my long story is...feel what you need to feel and talk about it. It is healthy and good. That is what we are here for. Feel free to send me a PM any time to vent!!
xoxo
Suzanne