Angie...You are definately not alone in how you feel. Like everyone here told me when I first joined that I am stronger than I think and they were right. Do I still fret and am concerned with every sore throat, pain, lump or irritation...you bet but in the end Donna is right we just gotta keep adjusting the game plan the game doesn't change just the rules...I hope you find comfort in your friends here and lean on those around you. It's ok to be human. Although being a mom it sometimes feels like we have to be super human. But remember keep your eye on the goal and even though the route may change...the goal is still possible. You are in my prayers and thoughts ...keep posting it helps to talk to others experiencing this journey!!!