Hi you have definately tapped into a pool of knowledge, experience, caring and love. It is a wonderful place to ask questions, vent, laugh and a place to feel safe. It was probably the best place for me when I was diagnosed. It is ok to be scared but more importantly to keep one foot on the floor. If you read some posts there are many many happy survivor biographies. I am sure there will be a lot of people with more experience chime in. All I can tell you is that most here will agree waiting is just the one of the hardest tasks to do. And what I was told to take one moment at a time, one day at a time...Every day is a new day!!!