Thanks All,

I was trying not to be one of the people who freak out on these pages. I know you guys get that a lot.

I guess i feel really alone. I've always kind of prided myself on being a loner, but it's just tough because I know if you catch it early it isn't as big of a deal, and no one seems to believe me, or something, and I know something is going on-my throat, tongue, upper mouth(?), tonsillary arch, all at different times are numb and painful.

I know I need a biopsy but how do you get a doctor to do that. I've been to the ENT twice, and many people on these pages tell stories of having to go to several doctors, or of people going to the doctor and not being diagnosed and dying. So, I don't know

I feel like a baby and a coward. My life has been in peril many times, and I freaked out, but not like this. I guess the pictures just look so gnarly.

It's strange, so many people chew, smoke and drink around here, yet she has only seen two cases of oral cancer. Fishing, logging, and construction are the three major industries. Two of the boats on the Deadliest catch are based here, so if you've seen that show you've seen how much those guys smoke/chew/ and drink. It's like life is cheep here, or something. If I don't have cancer, I got to get out of here. It's killing me, or already has, lol.

But man i just chewed so much, one after the other, i took one even before I got out of bed. It was that bad, so if anyone should get OC it's probably me. I'm an idiot.