The names Ryobi-and I really appreciate this forum and all posters.

I have not been diagnosed, but over the last six months I have had a burning sensation in my mouth.It seems to move from one area to another, but it's always on the right.

Over the last seven days things have really turned, After smoking 8 cigerettes over two days I have ulcers underneath and on the side of my tongue surounded by black and red. The whole area is painful.

I'm 33 and I started chewing and smoking about six years ago, and I have had HPV since my early twenties.
I essentially quit smoking and chewing since June-averaging about 1 cigerette a day-somedays more, somedays none. But the two years before, I chewed heavilly-one can a day-basically chain chewing the whole day, and smoking when my mouth was too raw to chew.

I basically was going crazy those years and that was my way of coping. I have suffered from social anxiety and depression since junior high. My parents were divorced when I was 1, and I moved between parents, towns and abusive step-parents and brothers and sisters throughout my childhood.

Needless to say, I didn't get good grades in school. I started working at fast food resteraunts, and it was brutal. I was living in the same town Kurt Cobain came from, and I had to get out of there.

I started saving, and paid for two years of community college, where I excelled while studying chemistry/biology, working as a housekeeper and dealing with mental illness and a bad back(herniated L4-L5). To cope, I became essentially a, "granola" and an exercise addict, I didn't drink, or smoke.

Eventually, I went to a four year-graduated with a B+ GPA in chemistry. But I could not succeed after. In one job, I would get hurt, in another I could not work in a social environment.

I moved home at twenty six, got on disability at 28, and started chewing compulsively around that time. I live in a small republican town, everyone knows everything, and there is great stigma-being on disability. Chewing was my way of dealing with the stigma and my low self-esteem

I have been to a ENT two times and a dentist twice- the dentist thought I might have thrush but did not prescribe any medication.

Ever since i smoked those eight cigerettes....

Sorry, for the long post

Ryobi~