Hi David no worries about thinking you are ignoring me you all have a life and are busy and I didn't give it a second thought I was just putting it out there for anyone who could help me it's the termonology that is getting me...like "squamous cell carcinoma" and " mandible" I am having trouble understanding terminology for sure. I talked to my husband's home nurse today (he is diabetic and has sores that will not heal on his toes)and she was commenting on how proceedures in the united states are so much more advanced than here in Canada. I hope this doesn't lower my chances at survival. Anyway I am just plugging along and concentrating on finding info out and not smoking what a curse. Any input will be digested and sorted out and hopefully have positive impact on me. After talking with nurse I again don't wanna wait but I don't want it to happen either. My husband said if I was so upset over this just not to have it done but I don't feel this is an option...see I am so all over the map...just can't seem to stay in one direction. I have read emails, posts, blogs and all point to one very very very scary operation with lots of side effects and possibilities the only common factor is the people are alive to talk about it!!! I really am hating this waiting game and think I will call Monday to see if anything has been set up..I know I have had this monster for at least 8 months and I am afraid if I go much longer it will travel too far...I don't know how much difference four weeks is gonna do...

Still up in the air Actually not a bad view from here :)) just spooky

Dianne