Dianne:

Hang in there. Please try to calm down, this isnt going to do you any good being so upset. You are sick and the doctor is going to fix it. You do have the strength too, you just dont realize it yet. Do you have a caregiver or someone who will be helping you? Will your daughter be helping you?

Here's a few things I did to prepare for my treatments. I started cleaning like never before, every room floor to ceiling. I just figured with 2 teenagers in the house the cleaning wasnt going to get too much attention while I was sick. I also stocked the house with groceries that were easy meals for my kids. I bought alot of soft foods for me like applesauce, pudding, soups. Look for low sodium items as salt can burn your mouth. I got all my bills in order and set up direct debit on them so I wouldnt have to bother writing checks. I got the oil changed on my car and got it inspected. I also got my chimney and furnace cleaned. Sorry to hear about your dogs, I did manage to keep mine but it wasnt easy.

I hope these ideas help you. When I would worry, I would decide it wasnt going to get the best of me and I would go clean or do something positive.