Hi Aimeeb,

I, like you, have not been through what most of the folks here have been through, so it seems that my part of the 'story' has already been told. I do come back to the board and check on people, does that make me a lurker? I don't know I am always logged in and anyone can see that I'm on this site but I believe that the lurkers are welcome too (I think some of my family are here as guests) I don't say much since there are so many others that have such good information. I wanted to reply to you to let you know you are definitely not alone and there are many others here whose situations are close to yours, it took me around 5 months to figure that out.
Keep the faith, and try to push the fear to the back of your mind, there is so much more to do than worry! I hurry about my life and try to keep busy, that helps to keep the fear in the background, having said that, I think the fear will allways be with me so I choose to not let it be in charge.
For someone without much to say I have said quite a bit And you will be another person on this site that I come back and check on!
God Bless,
Sharon