Hi Dixie,
I will keep you all in my prayers.
I was so lost when I first found the OCF...still feel lost now and then, but at least here, someone always helps, even if it is just by getting on and saying hello. I would use that search engine provided, I found so many answers by doing so...of course, it loaded me with more questions too!
I understand your fear about the time, I lost my brother to AIDS, and all I wanted to know was how much time? They told us 6mos-maybe a year in Nov of 1994, he lost his battle Jan of 1999.
I also lost my aunt, Lauren, who ws also one of my best friends to lung cancer with mets to her brain...again, wanted to know time but that time I didn't question time as much--feared what i would be told?
I'm so sorry about the loss of your mother. I can't imagine going through so much and then to have that shock. My heart aches for you.
Dixie,
You need to find a way to get some time for you. It helps so much. When I have been worn down and not taken a break I have become very agitated, and usually very sick...no good to anyone.
Love and prayers to you. I hope you are blessed with a miracle, I know my family has been.
Donna