Well, it's 72 hours since I started my new 'pain regime'
I seem to have run the whole gamut of emotions since the biopsy last Wednesday, through pain, anger, despair, fright and elation.
Today I feel calmer generally.
Saturday, the morphine kicked in big-style and I felt relaxed and totally pain-free, even the excision site didn't feel so sore.
I slept realy well until about 5a.m., then woke up with searing pain in my side again. It subsided a little when I sat up, as it always does, but certainly needed another pill! And had 2 supplement during the day with Ibuprofen.

Wasn't anything like so comfortable during Sunday, and felt more sleepy. But was also seriously worried about my original lump which continues to grow and hurt.
Looked it up on the net.....hmmmm....certainly, if it isn't yet, it has all the potential to very soon BECOME a gross fungating skin tumour--and you all know what those are like--Yeewwww!
So with that of course came the fears that I won't be able to go away next month etc., etc. and is it leaving it too late to wait til next doc's appointment on 30th? All that kind of negative stuff that slides under your guard occasionally.

But woke up this morning feeling more positive (mainly I suppose because the pain wasn't so bad)so went out and bought a book on Cyprus anyway!

I also spoke to the doc on the phone this morning, I now have the
MST 12-hour release tablets, plus the shorter acting ones which I can take for Breakthrough Pain.
And the 'whole thing' should be in my system within the next 24 hours, so should be functioning better from now on.

Still worried though about 'catching' the top of the neck lump with a brush or comb and opening up some revolting can of worms!

Thank you everyone for your support and suggestions, I really don't know what I would do without you all

Brenda x


Brenda in UK--Diagnosis 30/5/07--undifferentiated carcinoma in right jawbone and muscles. Stage 4
6/7/07--new diagnosis primary is in lung. Finished 4cycles of palliative carboplatin/gemcitabine
therapy September 07
Now dying to live!