Thanks Lynn--and am SO sorry you're having such a rough time--try and console yourself with the fact that you're doing what they call on here 'baby steps' and just try and get through each day as best you can--and you HAVE been given 'a future'---it will arrive, so don't even dream of stopping the rad at this stage--just turn into a total invalid, don't even attempt to push yourself and 'be brave', just grit your teeth and get thro it.
And keep on and on venting whenever you feel the need--keep looking at Anne Marie's gorgeous hanging kitty!
I guess the reason we're so submissive in the UK is that we have to beg for just about everything on the National Health Service--although we pay our contributions out of every month's salary and maybe never see a doc for years, when we do, it's considered free!
So we have to wait along with everyone else and just do as we're told!
The irony is that my doc actually HAS had breast cancer, but presumably she got through it differently!

Brenda