By the way my first (half) day at work went alright--great in some respects, hard in others. I loved being back with my wonderful colleagues and was involved in doing something I really enjoy yesterday.

But it really brought home to me how weak I am compared to my normal energy level still--there is a huge long two story staircase I go up to get to my office and I headed up it carrying a bunch of stuff (laptop, briefcase with a bunch of books inside, and a huge beach bag with all my mouth-care stuff--saline rinse, kleenex, tube and bottles of water for feeding, etc.) and halfway up those stairs I realized it was going to be like climbing a mountain to get to the top! I used to charge up those stairs lugging all sorts of stuff before all this started. When I got to the top I had to sit down and rest before heading down the hall to my office.

Also of course I had to just get over my inhibitions about spitting out gobs of gunk into kleenex every so often while sitting in this meeting. I did manage to do that eventually.

Today I'm going in for the afternoon again instead of attemtping the whole day--in part because I got so little sleep last night because of mouth pain. I realy wish the pain, at least, would get to be not so life-disrupting (I also am relying on people giving me rides to work and home again because the oxydose makes me a little too drowsy to probably be a safe driver and I can't just get by on Tylenol--mouth pain is too bad).