Mica,
It is an odd thing, but most of us don't get depressed when we are going in every day or even twice a day for radiation. I recall ringing the bell to signify the end of radiation and thinking that I now I would be happy. Instead, I found myself sitting around the house, feeling lousy and depressed, with nothing to look forward to but the next tube feeding. The only thing that made me happy was thinking that I had enough pain pills that I could end it all if need be.

Then I started taking a 2 mile walk in the neighborhood each day. I made sure that I had a couple of errands to run, even if they were just little trips to the grocery store or drug store, and I would have at least one friend a day stop by. It was at this time that I was lucky enough to discover the OCF forum and that really helped too! I also contacted the social worker at M.D. Anderson and found out about a men's support group.(Unfortunately there are not many oral cancer support groups since our type of cancer is not that common.) The social worker also turned me on to an organization called Cancercare, that provided 6 free sessions with a psychologist for cancer patients. I went only once because within two weeks I was feeling so much better. Don't worry about the feeding tube. I kept mine for another 9 or 10 months after treatments ended. It was really no big deal.

Anyway, it is quite normal to feel depressed when treatment ends. It sounds like you are right on schedule. I learned a lot of patience during recovery, and that is not a bad thing.

Hang in there...you have so many wonderful things to enjoy as you feel better.

Danny G.