Thanks everyone for your replys. What a great group that takes the time to reassure each other!. I am doing better. Today I took the Thrush meds and for the first time I didn't gag!!. Its been several hours now so I am going to try eating next.

I went to my regular Dr for my Thyroid meds and told him about the anxiety and he just wrote me a prescription for low dose zanix(sp) Just having the prescription actually made me feel better! I've only taken it a few times but it did help. I also found out that for some reason my thryoid instead of getting worse was actually working the other way and I need to reduce my synthroid from .175 to .1. I have had experience with too much of that stuff before and that could very well effect my anxiety level.

The other thing I did was agree to volunteer when the Dems called me. It was funny, cause my husband had just said why don't you try going down to the democratic headquarters and offering to do something and they called the next day. I can't do any phone calling I told them ( I still don't talk that much) but they had other things for me.

I am 55 and have grandkids. They live in Iowa City where my medical treatments are which is 80 miles from here. I always get to visit the 3 and 5 year old when I go down there which of course like many of you said is very good for depression.
And like some of you said I just decided to quit thinking about how bad I feel. When I start getting anxious I try the walk and try real hard to find some thing to get my mind off my self.
I am so fortunate to have many many friends and I have been keeping them all informed through out my ordeal. I am surprised how many people appreicate you keeping them in the loop. When ever they write or call and ask I tell them and it does help.

I was at the radiology Dr yesterday and he says I am doing good for as baddly as they beat me up. He also said that I am not going to be able to go back to work at the end of Sept like they had originally suggested, he is now talking first of November. and then part time. I am a letter carrier for the USPS. I am not sure how I feel about that, I really do miss work but I know I am not ready now. He also got on me about losing too much weight. My goal today is to drink all my food, no tube, and to get more down. Good to have goals eh!

Thanks again for your help everyone

Mica