Hi Mica, your experience brings me back to the time when I was so depressed after the treatment. Ventilation is important but unfortunately those around us don't really understand our situation. Of course we don't want them to have first hand experience with this evil.Don't ever suppress your emotions. I remember the worst time I had was when I didn't cry, didn't get angry and was just a stone. I was somebody else, which scared my family and friends. Anti-depressant and professional help can be a workable solution. Reading helps a bit in lifting your spirit. I read a lot of stories about cancer survivors, mostly in Chinese. Two English books that helped me through are 'Tuesdays with Morrie' and ' The Art of Happiness'. By the way, don't push yourself too hard to get all your energy back. I got mine after one year post treatment. Still it is not 100%! Be patient and take care,

Karen.