Hi Vicki! Again, my heart goes out to you. I hope my tone didn't come across as if to say you weren't trying, cause I know you are! I understand about the radiation damage to your throat & neck, but what about the site on your leg? You said it wasn't healing either & you couldn't take showers because of your leg & peg site. I was showering early on with my peg & forearm surgery & skin graft taken from my thigh. I could only shower from the chest down for a few weeks until the trach hole sealed up. That was a challenge & I did get water in it a couple of times & choked like hell! I wasn't suggesting you drink water with the trach in. I was talking about my rule breaking bad attitude! Keep yer chin up!