Sarah,

I am so sorry you have to go through this. Have you considered Al-Anon? They can help you handle the feelings of guilt and anger. It is bad enough having to watch somebody you love suffer from cancer, having to watch them actively aid in the killing process is too much!! I wish I could do or say something to help, but please believe there are lots of us who are praying for you and your family.

Michelle, I encourage you to look into the possibility of a halfway house for your husband. I know he'll probably be strongly against it, but Gary is right, it would be a great help in his recovery, and yours too.

Love, Leena