Once again, my words have been taken wrong.

Yes, I honestly feel that I have to weigh everything that I say here. Case in point....you obviously took offense at what I meant as a compliment. I have honest admiration for the courage all of you cancer survivors have. I never meant it sarcastically, or to seem belittling. I marvel at all of you. Sometimes I'm not as strong, and only wished to share that.

Brian, I didn't mean that you admonished me personally. It is only my, apparently, stupid intuition that makes me feel guarded in what I say. I only meant to thank you for giving another avenue on the board that might be more emotionally theraputic for me. It was in no way meant to be an attack. My point was that I don't always feel comfortable here sharing what is important to me, and I feel my words are dissected.

And the point that this is an open forum, but I'm publicly advised not to respond to your post? Why can't I defend myself? Is this to honestly make me feel better. I feel like a child who has had their hand slapped for not following the invisable rules.

My original post was one asking a very specific question....one that was turned into fear transference? How does that in any way explain what makes a throat unresectable? I did not turn this thread into an emotional issue.

I will gracefully bow out now, and promise never to grace your screen again. I do hope you will allow me to read along though. I'm sorry, but I have enough drama in my life without all this.

Mandi