Thank you all for your answers.

Being a caregiver is the hardest job I've ever faced. There are no words to explain how you lie down each night and prepare for tomorrow.

I hope I'm not out of place, but you guys with the cancer have a mission. We (caregivers) are here to hopefully guide the process. And when that process breaks down, we are the ones who are responsible. It's not always easy to be the "fix".

We all have personal issues......like me and Dennis.....we weren't on even ground when this all started. We are now dealing with life and death when before we were dealing with separation and divorce.

Of course I love him, but fate took the decision out of our hands.

Brian, you know I have much respect for this forum, but it seems at times that we can't honestly share our feelings, because we are admonished. This disease causes people to lie awake at night (like me now), and we need a place to air our grievances. We need to cuss, we need to rant, we need to cry........ We can't all be positive like the good people you are.

Thank you for the new forum. I know I may have needed the outlet more than most.

Mandi