Margaret,

If he has 10 more rads to go, then please count on at least 4 more weeks of misery, probably worst than he feels now. Then he will start a slow recovery but he will know when he walks out of that tunnel and that will provide a psychological boost to his mental state.

It is perfectly normal for him to feel doom and gloom now and it won't get better until he finally realizes he's walked out.

I didn't get the mood drugs and I'm not saying he shouldn't as that's a individual thing but he and you will come through this in one piece and your worlds will return to normal but just don't expect too much too soon.

Also my wife confessed to me, long after I was recovering, that she too cried a lot when I was not in sight or hearing distance. I'm glad she didn't tell me sooner or that would have made me feel worse.


David

Age 58 at Dx, HPV16+ SCC, Stage IV BOT+2 nodes, non smoker, casual drinker, exercise nut, Cisplatin x 3 & concurrent IMRT x 35,(70 Gy), no surgery, no Peg, Tx at Moffitt over Aug 06. Jun 07, back to riding my bike 100 miles a wk. Now doing 12 Spin classes and 60 outdoor miles per wk. Nov 13 completed Hilly Century ride for Cancer, 104 miles, 1st Place in my age group. Apr 2014 & 15, Spun for 9 straight hrs to raise $$ for YMCA's Livestrong Program. Certified Spin Instructor Jun 2014.