Margaret - I can so relate to what you are going thru! But there is some good to hang on to in that your husband is still eating the eggs and taking liquid supplements. Tiredness and depression is very common during the treatment stage. There are lots of ups and downs for both the survivor and the caregiver. The tears I saw rolling down my son's cheeks, just broke my heart. But the "up" moments come, too and things do get better. My son slept so much, often I had to wake him to take medication or push some liquids and many times I would go in to his bedroom to see if he was still breathing. (he was) About the anti-depressants - maybe if you talk to the doctor about his reluctance, and if they feel he really needs them, they may be able to give him some new perspective on why it might be a good idea. If your husband is concerned about becoming addicted, there are ways to slowly decrease the anti-depressants when the time is right. It's a lot easier to deal with anything if depression isn't in the mix. I can understand his wanting to get back to riding his bike. One of my son's happiest moments was when he was able to get back on his motorcycle. Margaret - it's good that you are getting out now and then even if it's just to take a walk. During the worst of times for us, I did a lot of crying, too, in the car - at home - late at night. What helped both of us a lot was the guidance we got from OCF. No matter what time you get here, seems like there is always somebody listening. So, keep looking towards the "up" moments and just taking a day (or even 5 minutes) at a time. There really is a light at the end of this dark tunnel so keep looking towards it and let us know what is happening.