I am ashamed to have say that it all fell apart on Sunday.I begged and pleaded with Rob to stop drinking and to take his tube feeds but nothing i said or did made any difference and by Sunday he was taking only 600 calories a day by his tube and not eating anything,and every day he would get off the sofa get dressed and go to the pub for 2 hours.When he got back he said he wasnt hungry and in the evening he would have a glass of wine and go to bed without a feed.So i did the only thing left i could think of.I told him i couldnt watch him killing himself and that i couldnt understand why after all the time effort and care he had from the hospital and all the support staff he was behaving like this and if he wasnt going to stop this destructive cycle ,i would have to go.His answer was simple.Two words ,and they werent very nice.So here i am.Somehow i found the strength to pack my bags and get in the car and now i have to live with it and its the hardest thing i have ever done.He hasnt been in touch and he wont answer the phone but i hear about him every day from a friend .His family have been 100% supportive of me,but i dont expect anyone here to understand and i realise that what i have done will be a completely alien concept to all you woman who were so much stronger than me.I will never forget how you all helped me to help Rob through everything and i am sorry we let you down,you brave people deserve so much more.