Veronica,
As a cancer patient, I can tell you that I went through alot of the same feelings that you described. I cried, then wanted to be by myself and have a little pity party alone. When i worked out of that I decided to get better. I think it is a normal thing to go through all of the stages of anger, denial etc. Telling your Mom that you love her and touching her is important. My kids tried to deny that I was sick. Only my husband understood. I found many people who would not look me in the eyes. It hurt, but I do understand. Things 5 months after treatment are alot better. Keeping focused and
keeping God first is what kept me going. Remember we love you and will pray for you and your Mom.