HI everyone....I guess there's so many of us in the same boat. My mom also was diagnosed almost a year ago. She has had radiation, chemo, a radical neck dissection, then another neck dissection tracheostomy, feeding tube, undegtone hyperbaric oxygen therapy, and recently 3 blood transfusions. Now the doctors want a chest CT (tomorrow) ..She has become weaker and weaker on a daily basis, even though the surgeon said all the tissue he removed was cancer-free. She has difficulty walking and requires a walker to move, on the RARE occasion she has the energy to do so. She is 52 and it almost seems like she's 100.....no energy, and so much depression! Like everyone else, I try to be positive and smile when we are together. I visit her daily, and sometimes sit quietly and just hold her hand. But with each day, I find it harder to watch....she is such a wonderful person, not a selfish bone in her body. It is killing me seeing her suffer so terribly. Sometimes I just want to scream!!!!!! Other days, I know that she is extremely tough, and am hopeful for a positive outcome. It helps knowing others can relate, but I'm sorry that anyone has to know this pain!