well tomorrow the 3rd is nearly here and im so nervous its unbelievable. will have to go through all the biopsy scenario again 3 years on from the first scenario.

i have got myself so worked up and scared its beginning to do my head in, i also have my mum extremely worried.

dont reckon they will do anything tomorrow as its for the initial consultation, but ive tried to stay positive but it is so so hard and i dont know if ive done the right thing by scouring the internet and looking at all the worst case scenarios and graphic pictures.

i hope all goes o.k and i can put this all behind me and get on with life and enjoy my times with my daughter.

i have worried about this for so long now ( 4 months straight) that i dont know whether the pain on the right hand side of my throat is in my mind or the sensitivity on the white patch is in my mind or real.

i will just need to go and let the experts decide, but im so scared to be going through all this again.

i can safely say this, if all turns out o.k i will NEVER touch another drink in my life never mind smoking, ive got myself so worked up.

i wish all on this site the very best , your stories have really made me think about things and i will be a new man if i manage to get through this repeat scenario without the dreaded outcome taking place.

thanks

Derek